Daym.

I asked you to stay for a reason.
When you're around my heart never ceases to stop beating.
How can you be my entire inspiration?
How do I deal with this distinct revelation?
What pisses me off is I'm defeated

But it's cool
Because you don't know
You don't know how our simple conversations make love to my soul
And though I get peeved at the little things
What fails to make them sting
Is that I'm familiar
I can read you like the back of my hand
The way you sit, the way you stand
Disclose your inner most deliberations

And with a quick gaze at you
Your eyes reveal a maze
Which I get trapped in
Victim
Captive
Shit, I got distracted
Babe, sorry, what did you say?
I'll leave it actually, you'll tell me another day

Yet with each and every thing you say
I learn more
Unfortunately
Or fortunately
You're no robot
So as much as you have patterns and habits
You surprise me in every single way
From your selflessness which continues to manifest itself in the bedroom
To your intellect, which I wish you'd share with me more often
You not only turn on my body, from a single thought
You ignite my mind, through the knowledge you have taught

As Daughter once said in Medicine
You have a warm heart, you have a beautiful brain
And as time goes by, I realise you've left a stain on my heart
Burned a place in my farts😂
And for that you're truly special

I push you away because I want you
But I know I can't have you
So, how worth is it torturing myself?
When jealousy overcomes cos my flatmate gets catered to every night
It's kinda hard to fight feeling some type of way
You can hack it though
You're strong enough for the both of us
And I love us enough for the both of us
So let's stop fucking around and get to this place called trust

The more I become my mother
The more you become like my father
The more I discern that we're more compatible than I imagined
On paper, we should have never come together
But through it all
I'm glad you're my lover.

Another Hoe

Here she stands
Straight and alert
Back as erect as the buttons on her shirt

Look at
Her skin
Look! Really
Look further within the
DNA and molecules and melanin
That mould together to compose the
Layers of protection of her flesh and not
To mention the brokenness
Of her soul

Daym. She just another hoe.

We thought
She was different
Exuberating around her
A sweet ass innocence that
Made everyone want to be her
Friend or daughter in law or maybe
Something a
Little
Bit
More

Now she struts around
Shoulders down
Barely making a sound
Rarely lifting her head to smile
Because she's tired of being the nice girl
For a while
And where there was light
A darkness surrounds
The kind that lurks and spills over
If you get too close

Now she pumps
Herself with alcohol and pills trying
To mask the anxiety that she
Feels about her choices and maybe if she takes
Enough she'll be in luck and her thoughts of
Leaving this earth to rest will finally come true. Yet there's
No one, because she pushed them all away
Like a prodigal daughter

She hoped for the best, till life and love
Landed her in a fucked up mess, and stress
Has her hiding and paranoid that those she loves
Are lying about tit and tat, perhaps it wasn't that but
The feeling when she opened her legs...

Groan.
She grown. Right?
Not when she's been to the clinic 3 times
To cover their mistakes
His and hers
Hers and his
Who's fault was it?
Who cares?
What's important is there's lust in the air
And she can't help but crave his body 24/7
Because in those moments, she reaches mental heaven
She knows
She thinks
She might not be
Just another hoe

But she didn't give it up straight away
She made him work for the cookie
She made him wait to get lucky
But when he did, he could walk
He'd gotten what he wanted
So there's no other reason to sit around and talk
And when she pissed him off or felt attacked
He could just discard her
Though she's sure that's not what he was taught by his mother

But a man is a man
And no matter what
Though it took two to tango
She is just another conquest
In the worlds eyes
And though she can't seem to shake
The heavy ache of the thought of his past lovers
Though sometimes she wonders if he draws comparisons in his heart
Deep, deep down
She knows
There's love between them

She's not just another hoe.

Grown.

As you look out into the world
It's so big
It's so beautiful
Each place that you stand
Is holy land
As you brag about the way you can kick a ball
Climb a tree so tall
Run outside for a week
Better than any meek and smelly boy you know

You're a princess
In your best dress
Baby to hot pink
Glitter to sequin
Lip gloss popping
Eyes are locking as you sing on that stage
You don't scare from their stares
You embrace them
Never has the world been more your oyster

Your brain is a combination of the most intelligent chromosomes you know
The way you recite scripture
Beats Nicki Minaj's flow
And that's saying something
Little pumpkin
You can't wait to be thirteen
When suddenly your spirit so keen
Is no longer cool
And they drool at the skinny girl
Who's brain is a tool
Let alone eighteen
And they're eyes will be scanning your thighs
Or the size of your behind
My my

Sweetie pie
May you never know what it's like to not reach your potential
And cry at night
And die inside
As you imagine the better place you could have created
Had you not been busy getting elated
About Pretty Little Liars
Or the Youtube video of the girl who set herself on fire

Girl
Never let anyone extinguish your blaze
I want to see them sit back and amaze at the way disallowed anything to distract you from your gaze
Eyes on the prize
Soon your little mind will be producing theories and contributing to the world of knowledge in a way your
Mother never could
Your Nana never could
Nor Great Grandfather
May your enlightenment satisfy you
May your light act as a guide for you
May you never question if you are loved
May you always find a hug

I really do love you.