Another Hoe

Here she stands
Straight and alert
Back as erect as the buttons on her shirt

Look at
Her skin
Look! Really
Look further within the
DNA and molecules and melanin
That mould together to compose the
Layers of protection of her flesh and not
To mention the brokenness
Of her soul

Daym. She just another hoe.

We thought
She was different
Exuberating around her
A sweet ass innocence that
Made everyone want to be her
Friend or daughter in law or maybe
Something a
Little
Bit
More

Now she struts around
Shoulders down
Barely making a sound
Rarely lifting her head to smile
Because she's tired of being the nice girl
For a while
And where there was light
A darkness surrounds
The kind that lurks and spills over
If you get too close

Now she pumps
Herself with alcohol and pills trying
To mask the anxiety that she
Feels about her choices and maybe if she takes
Enough she'll be in luck and her thoughts of
Leaving this earth to rest will finally come true. Yet there's
No one, because she pushed them all away
Like a prodigal daughter

She hoped for the best, till life and love
Landed her in a fucked up mess, and stress
Has her hiding and paranoid that those she loves
Are lying about tit and tat, perhaps it wasn't that but
The feeling when she opened her legs...

Groan.
She grown. Right?
Not when she's been to the clinic 3 times
To cover their mistakes
His and hers
Hers and his
Who's fault was it?
Who cares?
What's important is there's lust in the air
And she can't help but crave his body 24/7
Because in those moments, she reaches mental heaven
She knows
She thinks
She might not be
Just another hoe

But she didn't give it up straight away
She made him work for the cookie
She made him wait to get lucky
But when he did, he could walk
He'd gotten what he wanted
So there's no other reason to sit around and talk
And when she pissed him off or felt attacked
He could just discard her
Though she's sure that's not what he was taught by his mother

But a man is a man
And no matter what
Though it took two to tango
She is just another conquest
In the worlds eyes
And though she can't seem to shake
The heavy ache of the thought of his past lovers
Though sometimes she wonders if he draws comparisons in his heart
Deep, deep down
She knows
There's love between them

She's not just another hoe.